Well, it was an interesting night here in NoVA. I was settled into bed, getting ready to fall asleep … and then the storms began. Though it probably wasn’t the best idea, it prompted me to hop out of bed and peek through the window to check out what was going on. I swear, this was the second time in my life I’ve seen rain coming down SIDEWAYS (the first time was about 18 years ago). I’m pretty sure it wasn’t this bad when the hurricane whipped through most of the east coast last summer.
I’m looking at it this way – maybe it was my sign from above that I needed to relax today (as expected, the power is out at the gym … and I woke up about an hour later than I would have planned to anyway … you know my Saturday gym schedule revolves around opening time at the pool).
It’s an understatement to say it’s been an exhausting week. You know how they say when it rains, it pours? (Wow, what a fitting analogy!) Let’s just say that the crazy thunderstorm sums up my week at work. There were four solid days that it got to be close to 1 p.m. and I started thinking, oh, I should probably have lunch (we normally lunch around 11:30 a.m.) – and shoved salad down my throat as I continued working. Pretty sure yesterday was the first day this entire week that I had two seconds to breathe. This week KICKED MY BUTT – I’m definitely earning my upcoming vacation!!
So, today I relax. And buckle down for my final Sunday Spinning class at XSport Alexandria tomorrow morning (if you’ve ever checked it out, I recommend reading my reflections on the past two years here: http://wp.me/p2fdg2-70).
Last night, a question was posed that kind of – okay, really – rubbed me the wrong way: “Do you even have the time to date someone?” My answer: “Of course I do – I would absolutely make time for the right person.”
Now, I know you’re asking … what does this have to do with fitness? Well, fitness is a priority in my life, and between teaching five classes a week and my personal workouts, it does take up a chunk of my free time. But by no means does that mean that it is my entire life. With the exception of those five hours a week, I can be pretty flexible with my schedule. And I’m totally confident that I have the time and commitment necessary to be successful with both my fitness and the right man.
The truth is, for a long time – we’re talking (gulp … yikes) most of the last six and a half years – exercise has been all I’ve had, as far as love is concerned. (That endorphin high has to come from somewhere!) There has been a void in my heart, and instead of letting it get me down, I’ve filled it with sweat and muscle soreness. But I’ve also filled it with the love of the people who join me in class, who come to me for advice, and who have been there to push me, to encourage me, and, whether they realize it or not, help me put on a happy face, on the days that I feel crying. It’s helped me see that although I’ve been single, I’ve never truly ever been alone.
I have no problem admitting that exercise and fitness is a huge part of who I am. It wasn’t until I discovered how much I got out of it – as a former fitness manager once told me, “you were put on this planet to do this – to change people’s lives” – that I realized how happy it makes me. But could it be that the one thing that makes me happier than anything in the world could actually be keeping me from finding the one person in the world who will make me happier than anything? There’s nothing that could possible scare me more – because while I love the world of health and fitness, I know that there is nothing more important to me than finding someone with whom I can share my life and have a family. I don’ t think it should have to be a one or the other kind of situation.
Bottom line: I do know my priorities. It’s just that I’ve found myself significantly more successful on the fitness front versus the love front. But I’m confident that there is an amazing man out there who not only understands and feels the same way I do, but will stand by me and be happy that I have been able to share my passion with other people (and who knows, maybe even give me a spot from time to time). I’m ready when he is. 🙂